I can just tell that today is going to be a real test of will... A very packed 8 hour day in the office, meetings, cooking, and dealing with general headaches. Then a short hour break and it is off to Anthropologie where we are having a visit from our Regional Managers which means that every board fold must be perfect, every hanger in place... leading to a very late night.
I had lunch with two of my best girls last week and we got into a conversation of conflicting interests. I live in beautiful San diego, it is May 3rd and it is expected to be 89 today, an absolutely amazing day to lay out on the beach. However I will not be at the beach... I will be stuck in my office (which mind you has no windows) sitting behind two computer monitors.. absolutely dreaming about being outside. This led the three of us to have the conversation of what is better. They both work restaurant jobs allowing them days free to lunch, sleep in and lay in the sun. Myself on the other hand refused to get another hourly job that will add little to my resume and set out to enter the working corporate world. I am proud to say that I feel quite successful in the endevor however days like this I feel full of regret.
It is nice to pay my rent and not worry about having $6 left over, but the voice in my head keeps saying "your only young once... go go the beach" I know that being responsible is never fun, but am I wasting my first few years out of college working a job that I know wont be my career...
I may be trying to have my cake and eat it too.. I just have to keep reminding myself that putting on the big girl pants this early will only set me up to wear those Gucci pants with my Louboutins in the future....
